5 places I wanna take you...and i will i promise..

1. Ashikaga Flower Park..

A place I dream of walking through just you and me.. holding your hand.. Place you would really understand as no one else..

2. French Polynesia

I want to hide with you from the whole world.. watch best sunsets, make love.. eat.. make love again.. sleep and all over again.. simple life..

3. Amazon River

And then move to the purest part of the world taking a trip through Amazon River... Sleep on the trees in Jungles and listen to the sounds of the nature...and then move up to big cities of Brazil, your roots!

4. Lisboa

Since I was a kid I always wanted to take this cutest ever tram and spend a day riding it around hills of Lisboa... Lets do it together...

5. Festival of Colors (India)

I know these pics will make some good memories of yours to pump up.. One day we are going to explore India together..

PS' I love you

E vero....

Μη μου δικαιολογηθείς, μη μου εξηγείς
Πες μου σ’ αγαπώ, τίποτα άλλο
Τίποτα άλλο μη μου πεις, για να ξαναρθείς 
Μόνο ένα απλό σ’ αγαπώ
Τι θες να ακούσω
Τώρα που καμία, καμιά συγγνώμη δε φτάνει
Το σ’ αγαπώ μπορεί, μόνο αυτό μπορεί
Μες την καρδιά να μπει να τη ζεστάνει

Confused. Instead of licking blood from the wound, let it drop,
Hoping poison will come out

Relieved. Instead of fighting back for what seemed so right,
Just keep silence hoping the one will fight back for me

Totally nude. Totally blank.
Like a book. Take me! Read me! Know me.
I have no secrets. I speak up the truth.

why does the right vision always come late?!

All of us had year when it felt like “I wanna forget it, erase from memory”. A year we lived for someone else who we truly loved. Why often in love we forget about our needs and compromise becomes sacrificing? I am getting older and just sex thing is not interesting to me. I do want to have someone who really want to share not just bed with me. I miss emotional attachment, I miss sharing my happy emotions with a person who cares and does not play games. I am done with games. When I look at my brother in his 29 having a fantastic kid, expecting the second, going on vacation all together with his wife.. I honestly envy. At some point started over evaluating things I wanted to vomit. Being single is a perfect time to look for your  match or become an ideal egoist. Unfortunately many end up on the second road. Sadly. Two days ago, completely empty inside I was walking through Central Park and I remembered the same walk more than a year ago..I could have told myself move on, but i preferred to believe in happy ends of fairy tales. May be I needed this year to realize one simple thing: we always look for excuses to those we love.. Answers are all above. If those we love are really into us, if they really love us, they do everything impossible to make it happen. Don’t waste your time on people who do not want to spend this time with you. 

one

what can we do to make those we want to be loved by, to look at us in the same way they did? i remember the first smile..That first absolutely innocent adorable smile that  could melt the hardest heart. It did in a way. There are no words to describe how high i could go loosing myself in those embraces. When you start writing a story, there a pages to complete, but the end means ending of a story. I was holding a pen, couldn't stop writing, changing on typing, choosing all the way to keep on living a dream. Why do we need to put a dot, if there can be comma? After hundreds of comma, i  am in real coma! The worst is coming back to empty apartment facing the reality, where each corner reminds you of certain thing. Do we need radical methods here like complete deleting? I wish i could just turn back time, do  some cut and paste. Caught between two different worlds past and the word i cannot spell knowing its a place for one. Often love is so not enough to complete the journey! Why do we fail having all the weapons? I know only one way of escape- delete and run. No matter how many times i fell, i had strength to stand up. I guess I will do the same! I will darn my heart! 

Loosing a friend

The way we thought the road would go
The shadows ruined uploading lies
The rain that could erase us both
Was simply tricking our minds

The clouds cried out what mattered most
Guess,desert swallowed after dark
Whatever bullet heaven sends
Hearts squeeze it slowly hitting sides

 Ps' it is hard to loose a friend, but there are principals we all follow! There are mine, and I cannot go against them! It's difficult to part ways, but it's for best!

ordinary morning..

Well it was not an ordinary morning though.. I woke up as my bed was shaking and chair moving towards the bed. Well, actually it is not the first time, so I jumped and ran to my bad to get the passport. You never know how serious it can be. Then I saw on tv that it was quite strong on the north of the country. Is it a preparation for the end of 2012? Its not that I am a believer., but you know, a year ago I went to some powerful woman to clean my aura (for some of you it sounds weird might be) and she told me that the end of 2012 starting from september better stay away from water.. Well .. I believe whats written it is.. Everything else was ordinary.. work, articles, planing next month and doing calculations for the project. Cant believe its been one year since I am in Italy.. Truly time flies..Spent afternoon finishing articles and just wrote this.. dunno why .. just came into my mind..


it hurts as broken arrow in my pulse,
It stays as cut that's constant bleeding
Whatever takes to get it out
But simply let it live in...

It freaks, it stinks with broken heart
It sounds as scars that's been disturbing
Whoever comes in dare to shout
But simply feels I wanna be with

Sentimental values

If i stay on weight, guess, I will be terrified with the numbers! And it's not about the amount of pasta I consumed during the last days! It's all about the jewelry I am wearing! I cannot Leave my house without it, unless it's a black tie event! All of my rings, bracelets have a very sentimental value to me! My first ring with lizard on it I  bought in Malaysia! It was a period when I first fell in love with asia! I lost it twice, but somehow it returned to me! Since then I never took it off! Another one is a Taiwanese designer, engagement one! Though I went through the hardest in my life break up, I still cannot remove it, as it reminds me of amazing 6 years I had! Three rings in one I got in Bangkok, walking home from the club, cost nothing, but reminds me of the craziest year I spent there! Silver Tiffany my dad gave me in hong kong when he flew over to help me out moving houses! I suck in assembling the furniture, and dad flew over all d way from russia to help me out! We spend one day assembling and other 5 doing Xmas shopping! Ring with Christ on it, I got for my birthday in Phuket, after my hypnotherapy session, when i realized i desperately need to change something in my life! Huge cross on my neck came to me from las Vegas from the dearest friend of mine! It attracts so much attention, and i simply love it! Silver Tiffany chain came from the same friend with a red coral stone on it! I believe this stone takes all the negative energy around me! Also I attached my cross my mom gave me! Snake bracelet also a gift as well as other bracelets! I wear them all at once! When I am on d plane, or train, I just look at them and all memories come up! Make me smile!

this rain...

This rain has told me it will wash away one day
Your love, your face that seemed to be the only one that mattered.
This wind was drawing simple map for you to find the way
That goes to door of mine.
And all that pain we suffered for God knows what comes so rare
Will vanish while you paint my life in bright..
This rain has told me it will wash away one day
This rain has lied.....

what do u think of these spaces to have a dream?!

Oh my its been a while since I published something. Time flies so fast. Woke up from the brightest sun here in Moscow. Fashion week is on, and lots of events to attends, shows to see. But this post is not about fashion, fuck it for now! About fashion will write on trendspace.ru
Last four days spent in spring. It was an incredible unforgettable days full of laughs and joy. There were no even a sign of me leaving that place. You know.. when you walk along the street, and you feel with all you heart this is you place to be.I know there is nothing special in it, but it means everything to me! I love ya Milan, with all my heart! I had so much fun!

Miss you guys already!

I love cooking. It always has been my passion, and may be, who knows, one day I will publish my recipes.
I love having friends over for dinner some wine and movies. I guess i m not really a big fan of parties anymore. Since its the Great Fast i am trying to follow. I not that strict to myself and I do eat fish.

i miss that tan)

Its weird  after celebrating VD with someone for 6 years, suddenly realize there is no more..time to move on! i did moved on! I even had another date for this romantic day. Life goes on! The most important is to open eyes and see beauty around...

Everyone Happy Valentine's Day!!


Some great antic stuff from Nepal I discovered today! LOVE!

happy st.valentine's..

Guess this day is nothing, just another day on the calendar, unless you have someone special in your life to share this day with.  Its a complete mess in my life now, but i am so happy with this mess. this mess brought so much happiness in my life.

This mess makes me smile, makes me cry, makes me feel.

Thank you my mess, for making mess in my life! 

xoxo