coffee break

Today a coffee break with a friend made me think over and over again of the place I am now. Do I like who I’m becoming? Is it really me? Is it really who I want to be?

I forgot the last time I had gathering with real friends at home, or just had a normal dinner. My life is a social calendar. I am surrounded with beautiful people I don’t even know. I meet my best friends for coffee on skype, and see my beloved one once in a blue moon. Is it normal?! I run away from it, but I am so eager to be back, and with all my actions I am getting more involved. Will I ever have a normal life? What if everything behind my door is just a creation of artificial people trying to escape the reality. Normal real life is too boring. Having a normal schedule won’t allow me to fly to New York just because of my mood swing. Spent last three days in my apartment just watching tv and being me: sentimental and silly. No one knows what future holds. I am trying to plan ahead. Sometimes writing things down helps to concentrate more. We underestimate what we can accomplish in a period of time. I hope I will be in the place I belong. God knows best!