nostalgia

Every time I am on the plane flying somewhere I stare at the map, wondering how big our world is. I haven’t been to Russia for 2 years and sometimes it makes me sick. I am trying to deny the fact that I miss that place. Part of my soul still belongs to that place. Part of my mind still keeps on asking many questions I cannot answer. I am full of guesses. We are about to land in Seoul, South Korea, and I can see a piece of mother land on the map. Some russian sounds are in my earphones make nostalgia to come out! I used to go home  every now and then. Now my now and then is once in 2 years. It kinda bothers me, but I don’t do anything about it. I am thinking of going to Moscow in August and visit St.Petersburg as well. I just wanna go for a walk in the places I loved to be, wanna feel myself a bit russian again. Not that I don’t feel. I do. You know what I mean. I want to feel with every inch of my skin what it’s like to be back home. I want to wake up in the room I used to call mine, and spend the whole day going through my stuff in the garage, eat mom’s food, and talk. talk, talk on the phone with friends I haven’t seen for so long.

Where am I going with all of these?! Shall I just book the ticket? I think one day my Boss will kick me out from work. I have too many trips I need to do by the end of this year. I cannot belong to one place. I love Hong Kong. Every time I leave it for a week or so, I realize that I love it and miss much. I love social life there, I love the streets vibe. Even though people are slow walkers and it irritates me much every morning when I am in a rush to somewhere. I love Hong Kong! But I think it is time to fill the gap and go back to my real home. There is something missing in my heart! I am homesick person, in denial though.Landing. Being pushed to switch my laptop! Here you go, finally when I am truly honest to myself I am pushed to switch my mind off.