changes....

There were some changes in my life.. Actually a lot, and I keep on moving and trying not to look back. There are a lot of good stuff that left behind..but what if my luggage is only 20 kg.. I can't take everything with me. And I m left with memories. But I do look back and see how I have changed, how some people haven't or have become not part of my team.it hurts watching us growing apart and seems there is nothing I can do to save something that meant to be forever. Some have become family and I let it go ... Telling myself: " it will be fine, just fine".. Its been 2 years since my last trip back home. There is no desire of going there. I feel how different I am from the place I used to call home. I see how different I am from people I used to call my best friends. And swear, I m trying my best.. But we are different, guys, let's face it. Yeah, there is nothing wrong to be different, but when we are part of each other's life.. But we are not anymore. And seems like u don't have time to know mine anymore.. C'est la vie. Since I moved I became closer to my parents, and with some people I did not expect I would be. One time flirt grew up in a lifetime friendship, and many years of friendship just disappeared and lost in a time frame. We all used to party and do crazy things calling it youth. Now I appreciate quality time with people who share d same interests. People,I am comfortable to be around with. There are regrets though I am trying to leave past in d past. The one thing I have learned for sure is that just love isn't enough nor for relationship, nor for friendship.


Its not that I m giving up on people, absolutely not. But I just want to be heard by someone I love. I am tired of you my dear friends claiming that u don't have time, busy with work, u live in an office and other excuses. We all do have circumstances, but when it comes to a couple of calls in a year...well... I can still believe "it will be just fine"...