Some people look at you and think that you are the happiest person of alive. You smell money and success. Every morning you spent an hour in your closet choosing between Prada and Dior. You have been almost everywhere around the globe. You are always surrounded by beautiful people as you are. But noone knows that some of those beautiful and successful looking suffers from pain every day and it will stay till the last breath cuz there is no chance to turn time back and change mistakes that've been done; some of those eat trash food and take the cheapest bus or even walk in order to save the last dollar in the pocket; some of them just exist in order to give better life to someone they love; some "very lucky people" live their lives hiding the real identity. You may say: there is always a choice. Yes, indeed. As there is always a price you have to pay for your choice. It always comes in a package.
I dont want to make this post personal. I consider myself blessed to have what I have and to be who I am. I just lied! As many people do. Cuz my pain is only mine. I can share it with whoever, but it will stay with me no matter what. Another day, another fight...
On my way to immigration. Monday! The Official first Monday of Autumn. As usual grey sky..probably will rain. Need to get the clothes for the shoot tomorrow. Some friends are coming from St. Petersburg to visit me in the end of the week.
September 19th is coming. It will be the first time being alone on this day..(
Mood: none
Music: Ryuichi Sakamoto "Forbidden Colors"
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